Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label healing. Show all posts

Thursday, April 23, 2020

Growing and Healing: Every Day on Earth



Trauma forces disconnection which can be seen in landscapes, our human and ecosystemic communities, and even among collective and personal identities. But relenting disruptions can often transform ecosystems the most to become places for life:

After a prairie or woodland fire, Jack Pine cones open up to release their seeds only when there's fire present. The Kirtland's Warbler will only breed and nest in the new Jack Pines that emerge from freshly burnt prairie land.

A tree falling in the middle of a Sugar Maple forest allows more light in and many plants that were previously crowded and shaded out take its place.

And while so many people tend to associate trauma with the destructive process, we often fail to shift our gaze from the terminal moments toward the cyclical progeny it can point to.

Healing is a restorative form of growth that happens when there's respite from harm that inhibits our capacity to care for ourselves and each other.

Health speaks to one's capacity to take care of their self. And wealth speaks to collective health--our capacity to take care of ourselves, each other, and everything that supports that process.

Prosperity happens when nourishment is manifested as a result of healthy growth. And hunger without extreme keens our intuition for seeking appropriate nourishment.

The difference between healthy fulfilling organizations and hate groups is surprisingly narrow: both will utilize sense of purpose, progress, and meaningful connection.

But hate groups eventually force dependency for connection among their membership and limit the scope of purpose in ways that intentionally preclude "others" while playing on ambiguity enough for it to seem innocent or a dualistic good and bad with biased emphasis on only one side and denial to the other.

Healthy organizations, in contrast, encourage emancipation and meaningful connection within and outside of the team. They allow for growing up and out depending on their role in the environment.

The pandemic is a crisis that highlights a myriad of ongoing crises--and in many circles, you might even come across the phrase "disaster capitalism"--where people choose to exploit crisis for maximum near-term profitable gain at the expense of others.

But a contrasting path exists too--disruptions can be creative as well. Whereas the news and traumatic events are often shaped and exploited for manipulative purposes without genuine solution, creative acts function as a kind of exercise in gratitude:

They frame a chosen reality (or multiple realities) with uplift, elicit our being, inspire, and tend to empower people toward relevant and significant action.

Whether in the West African Tradition of the Jele, Celtic Bards, or singular storytellers, minstrels, painters, and warrior poets of many cultures over -- people have chosen to bridge the momentary tragedies and triumphs with creative acts that let us dance between the work in our day to day lives and the magic that manifests a timeless sense of wonder for lifetimes to come.

So what do our narratives for post-traumatic healing look like? It's likely a way of being that allows for independent and collective sense of purpose, progress, and connected relationships to flourish.

For sustaining prosperity, any act will tend to have characteristics that allow for creative, comprehensive, and continuous existence at appropriate scale.

At what point do we recognize the growth that's inherent to our healing?
What will be done for prosperous growth to happen?
As a person?
As a people?
As a population?
As a place?
As a planet?

Seeking answers to any of the above questions brings us into sacred moments--the ones that connect us to sense of purpose and compel us to live in good accord with ourselves and the world alike.
 
 
 
 
 [ ] kirtland's warbler + cultural burning / indigenous knowledge  traditional knowledge ecology {tending the wild}
[ ] Leila Janah's note on seeking post-traumatic growth
[ ] delivering happiness framework for fulfilling / sustained happiness
[ ] neuroscience of hate
[ ] 

Thursday, April 9, 2020

tools for handling stress

[tools for handling stress] Updated the quick-to-slow mindfulness guide to include one of the audio tools I forgot to paste in earlier, and also one of the best guides/workbooks for navigating stress+coping I've found that's applicable for pretty much all kinds of traumatic experience and focused on survivors of sexual assault:

[1] sound/app for resetting+clearing one's mind extremely quickly (rain, storms, waves, fire, wind, crickets, etc.); also great for working or just relaxing:
https://asoftmurmur.com/

[2] recognizing common body/brain responses to very stressful events -- while normally people think of trauma as big one-time disaster accidents, it can also be a product of many slow and subtle events too. "flight/flight" is a mythical duality, freezing is more common, there's also sometimes being compliant with a situation to make due, or freezing/dissociating, and often as last resort and least common is fighting.

The lecture (which you can watch at 1.5-1.75 speed okay) focuses on in-the-moment, but I'm realizing in myself and others that the behaviors can also sort of exist for longer periods of time if you/others don't notice/help redirect them.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dwTQ_U3p5Wc

[3] Guide/workbook for sexual trauma survivors that's useful for navigating through a lot of general stress and post-traumatic experience regardless of how long ago or recent the experience might have been.

Skim through it to get a sense of what's most relevant for you and choose to do things at your own pace, one at a time.
For those that this guide was intended for [even though it's United Kingdom focused, everything except for specific healthcare/legal system is still valid and useful], treat this more like a manual for how-to-prepare for a marathon. The exercises for working through intrusive thought patterns and nightmares are a really good start.

​​​https://www.reddit.com/r/MenGetRapedToo/comments/ey7uf4/a_selfhelp_guide_for_survivors_of_rape_and_sexual/

[4] Quick-to-slow guide mindfulness:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1xWXWNxaWo8Zh8mAZzOVhgWGI0j57aOATw-VadNGBfAg/edit#

From story-to-science

Open story-to-science and Eastern medicine ponderings (this post will be a thread for pasting research and considering science across cultural traditions):
In Ojibwe, the word for medicine--mashkiki--translates to "strength of the earth." [I'll post a video later on that]

Chinese and Vietnamese traditional medicine share a lot of similarities--often changes take an environmental approach over a longer periods of time rather than targeted at one particular ailment, and the effects are often gradual too.

i.e. eating bitter squash/melon a few times a month winds up preventing or flushing out parasitic infections. It's also used in the Philippines as a way to regulate insulin.

Or when ill, agitating the skin with a coin (called "coining" = think of a massage, dragging/scraping the edge of a coin with the force of an itch across your back+front etc. for boosting circulation--most medical pictures on the internet are horror stories of it done wrong) to promote circulation and menthol/peppermint oil + absorption (and maybe circulation too) is a traditional practice that I also grew up with and found useful especially whenever I had respiratory ailments, especially with the flu and fevers.

In the past decade, there's a growing body of Western research showing properties in menthol and peppermint oil that support the practice [will post NIH/other peer reviewed links below].
1) you're increasing circulation, and often decreasing inflammation
2) they have antiviral+antibacterial properties

As I think about the Chinese COVID-19 MediXchange cases, several hospitals noted that they also issued Traditional Chinese Medicine along side with conventional medical treatments that the U.S. is trying to test to confirm now. Vietnam is it's own country with some of its own practices but I wouldn't be surprised if coining with a menthol is part of the mix too. In retrospect, the fact that the most popular ointment I grew up with has Chinese characters all over it probably means that it's a Chinese practice too...


...

And yeah, some folks would consider Asians Eastern, and Native Americans in the "West" (excluding the folks who consider land-bridge migration and pre-colonial African migration part of the history).

But the Ojibwe creation story begins in the East, plus their maps would start with East on top too. So I'm drafting the Aanishinabek brothers and sisters back into the Eastern delegation as this season's top pick along with the Wu Tang Clan.

Story-to-science and Eastern medicine ponderings (this post will be a thread for pasting research and considering science across cultural traditions):
In Ojibwe, the word for medicine--mashkiki--apparently translates to "strength of the earth." [I'll post a video later on that]

Chinese and Vietnamese traditional medicine share a lot of similarities--often, changes take an environmental approach over a longer periods of time rather than targeted at one particular ailment, and the effects are often gradual too.

i.e. eating bitter squash/melon a few times a month winds up preventing or flushing out parasitic infections. It's also used in the Philippines as a way to regulate insulin.

Or when ill, cạo gió--roughly translates to “catch wind/spirit[?]”-- agitating the skin with a coin (sometimes called "coining" = think of a massage, dragging/scraping the edge of a coin with the force of an itch across your back+front etc. for boosting circulation--most medical pictures on the internet are horror stories of it done wrong) to promote circulation and menthol/peppermint oil + absorption (and maybe also circulation if the oils actually do that) is a traditional practice that I also grew up with and found useful especially whenever I had respiratory ailments, especially with the flu and fevers.

In the past decade, there's a growing body of Western research showing properties in menthol and peppermint oil that support the practice [will post NIH/other peer reviewed links below].
1) you're increasing circulation, and often decreasing inflammation
2) they have antiviral+antibacterial properties

As I think about the Chinese COVID-19 AliBaba MediXchange cases, several hospitals including Wuhan's noted that they also issued Traditional Chinese Medicine along side with conventional medical treatments that the U.S. is trying to test to confirm now. Vietnam is it's own country with some of its own practices but I wouldn't be surprised if coining with a menthol is part of the mix too. In retrospect, the fact that the most popular ointment I grew up with has Chinese characters all over it probably means that it's a Chinese practice too...

...

And yeah, some folks would consider Asians Eastern, and Native Americans in the "West" (excluding the folks who consider land-bridge migration and pre-colonial African migration part of the history).

But the Ojibwe creation story begins in the East, plus their maps would start with East on top too. So I'm drafting the Aanishinabek brothers and sisters back into the Eastern delegation as this season's top pick along with the Wu Tang Clan.
 
 
 
 
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Menthol essential oil vapor as:
1) anti-inflammatory
https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fphar.2016.00170/full
2) antiviral
https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1002/ffj.3252
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6064118/
 
 
See treatments (U.S., Chinese, etc.) and updates in this thread for Health Care Workers:
https://www.facebook.com/permalink.php?story_fbid=10112982683270473&id=2256689

Or straight to China's COVID-19 handbook: https://covid-19.alibabacloud.com/

Trad Chinese Medicine for COVID-19
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7128263/
 

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

Pathfinders and PTSD


The good news is that you're not alone--there's probably a lot more folks who'd be labeled with Complex Post-Traumatic Stress "Disorder" around in high-functioning contexts than you'd think.

And at times like this, a lot of those behaviors actually aren't disorderly--they're necessary for survival, deeply human, and for better or worse always have been in our society given the context of experience many people endured.

But the more I learn about myself and others I've been privileged to know as friends and family-- veterans, returning citizens, refugees, domestic abuse survivors, friends from communities like Detroit that still suffer from legacies of racism and colonialism -- the arc of behaviors and healing from them are also fundamental to everyone's experience.
Dissociation and intrusive thoughts certainly have unpleasant directions--and I suspect they're also not too different from how people slip into daydreams. And literally as of 6 hours ago, I learned there are really sensible tools for changing that.
My friend Onyx Ashanti likes to say "the mind is the programmable conduit for intuition that exists between novelty and memory."
....

[mindfulness]

[neurobiology to trauma/sexual assault]

[guide for sexual assault survivors]

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Iterations of grief and intentional gratitude

Grief is a profound iteration of gratitude that entails latent recognition of unidentified or yet to be realized loss which leads to mourning within oneself and/or a community.

Guilt can be a kind of grief where the wrongdoing in the absence of action or trespass of one's values entails a profound sense of loss to oneself and those the guilty individual may have (or may not have but perceived to have) harmed. Guilt is a form of grief over an action that the individual or community perceives as "wrong"...

Shame is a kind of guilt that happens as a kind of loss of connection to one's sense of self. It's often characterized by the sense that there's something deeply (harsh personal narratives might even say irreparably) wrong with who the individual is as a person by essence of their existence. Maybe shame is also a sign of blind self-grief. That blindness is what perpetuates a toxic negative feedback loop -- ergo my expression that "shame is the leukemia of mental health." when left in isolation without supportive signals that help ashamed individuals see qualities of their truest selves more completely in healthy light.


Yet what is "wrong" and what would be good in contrast to it?

Adopting a significant part of Aldo Leopold's maxim in his Land Ethic essay, I characterize as follows:

A thing tends to be good when it tends to preserve and advance the beauty and integrity of the biotic and abiotic community.
[biotic = living organisms, abiotic = non-organisms like rivers, mountains, rocks, etc.]

So "wrongs" are only useful insofar as they are used to guide us toward what typically will preserve and advance the beauty and integrity of the communities we live with--and since we are integral to those communities, it means "wrongs" must also preserve and advance our own beauty and integrity with respect to the communities we live with as well.

Beauty was a tricky thing for me to grasp, but thanks to a Kyudo demonstration and talk from two Japanese exchange students studying in Hawaii, they've illustrated a fundamental trio of Eastern concepts used in the martial art and even in my mother's line of family members:

Zen, Bi, Shin
Truth, Virtue, Beauty
In that sequence. Begin with truth. It can be a challenging and messy process, but committing to finding the "correct" or "good" form and developing a consistent relationship with goodness brings us into virtuous practice. Beauty emerges from recognizing the complete relationship between truth and what makes finding truth consistently a process. As a relationship, we then create the possibility for ethical consideration to exist--how we might improve our relationship with a truth using systemic processes for discerning and replicating "goodness" as guidance--in other words, we apply an iteration of science to our existential endeavors.

Recognizing the complete arc of truth, virtue, and beauty is the process for realizing grace. How elegance can manifest from the mundane.

Wisdom comes from our reliable truths. It's an incarnation of beauty that comes from a place of intelligence be it cognitive, kinesthetic, intergenerational, or otherwise.

Gratitude as I practice it comes from choosing to acknowledge something from an experience and/or relationship as an endowment--a gift, considering what that quality says about the situation/individual from a place of appreciation, how it brings out something genuinely worthy of appreciation in me, and expressing it in a way that's meaningful, hopefully relevant and visceral to all parties concerned.


I'll link back to older posts, but I'm glad to know and share that there's an arc toward healing and I've been able to document much of it over the past few years.

If you've the time and interest, go ahead and search this blog for the following keywords:
[good grief]
[shame: the leukemia of mental health]
[an emotional list + etc.]
[coping with tragedy -- gratitude exercise embedded]
[zin bi shin, kyudo]
[grace]

Be well or on the path to better, onward.

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Complex PTSD and navigating through it


This article succinctly sums up the arc of my own stumblings in healing in ways that I didn't realize would happen among relatively mainstream sources. Around 2015 was the first time I ever heard of Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD), and even then it was through a friend who was going through her symptoms from experience that were far worse than what I had. I'm really glad to see more people working through it now, and also people critical about the way that psychology in practice traditionally approaches anxiety, trauma, and depression tends to be inadequate if not completely uninformed.

https://themighty.com/2018/06/anxiety-from-complex-trauma/

Everything from

Literal good grief
The conundrum of compassion
Emotional Numbness

Even with all the reframing and attitude to look beyond some of the ingredients, it's helpful to recognize the patterns to what you're dealing with.

https://themighty.com/2017/08/life-impacting-symptoms-of-complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/

Emotion state sketches
Here's a trio of sketches that captured some of the things I felt near or when I was working through them:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1t5mlf87Wzqy2EWpq2qp1RwrkA5AJawzXFmCr-0c69OQ/edit?usp=sharing

I was trying to compile whatever guides I came up with a while ago in a way that would make it easy for you to proceed through but struggled to allocate the brain space (or computing capacity) so this is the next best thing--you might need to just run with whatever embedded links are in one of these posts (I think it's the first one) to see how I mapped/linked various things I was working through circa 2014/15 and what I did for intervening with them:

https://lighttelecommunication.blogspot.com/2015/02/an-emotional-list.html

https://lighttelecommunication.blogspot.com/2015/01/coping-with-various-degrees-of-agency.html?m=1

Emotional numbness can feel like a blessing and a curse--it took a long time for me to "be okay" with the feeling. Though it's helped me keep the clearest mind when it was time to pull a friend out of a fight, I sometimes questioned whether I'd be able to be emotionally perceptive when it matters.

​There's a video floating around the internet about a Ukrainian physics professor who started recording his lectures and demonstrations for students who were sick. Interviewed about how he felt knowing that his lectures are now famous worldwide with physics students and aspiring physicists, and how he tries to answer all of their questions. His reply:
"To be understood is to be happy. This makes me happy to know that there are people who want to learn about physics and understand what I'm trying to teach with enthusiasm."
Having shared a meal with dear friends in the North End, I realize this is simultaneously one of those ways and special moments that let you see what's life like to break out--or perhaps more appropriately, grow out, of that numbness.​​


Be well or at least know you're on the path to better.